For I know the plan I have for you, plan to prosper you not to harm you

Its been awhile since I last updated this. Guess it takes a bit of discipline to maintain a blog. Hee.. This testimony should be dated 2nd of February instead of 9th. Gonna be a long entry.

I just gotta give thanks to God, because in all things He works for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28).

Just a bit of background. I am doing sales(telesales) in the conference industry. Basically calling the decision makers(CEO, Directors, VP, etc.) in MNCs and big local companies. God had blessed me abundantly. I have been promoted twice every year and am currently an assistant manager, leading my own sales team. The money is good. Everything is well and I am supposed to be promoted as a sales manager at the end of March (It means more money!) Something that I have been looking forward for since my day one in the company as a sales executive. I thought, "This is the fruit of my labor! After 2.5 years I'll be a sales manager and earn big bucks!"

It seems that God has other plan for me. These past few months He has been prompting me to surrender my career and finance to Him. I headed off the notion as soon as it 'pop' on my head. My initial response was " Go away Satan!" Haha.. Then followed by some lame excuses. "God, I am making a lot of money and I will make more! I will use the money for Your glory! I will fund all my cell group's expenses, sponsor reach out activities, cell chalet, etc. etc." or things like " I will have a great influence over the people in this company as soon as I become a manager/director" I mean, I am doing very well, I'm on the right track to be a sales manager then maybe sales director and then may be GM "Take it all God, all but my career." Career and money became my source of security without me realizing it.

I kept on hardening my heart and closing my ears until 2 weeks back. During sanctification week, God spoke to me very clearly through Ps. Roland. He said most of the time, we cannot hear God's voice because we are affraid. We perceive God as a big boss up there who told us what to do and what not to do. However perfect love casts away all fear (1 John 4:18).

God asked me 3 questions that day, the same questions that He asked Adam when men first fall into sin (Gen3:9-11).
Question 1: Where are you? I miss you son.
He asked me this not to judge me for being rebelious, He asked me as a father who miss His son (wanted to cry but told myself guys don't cry heh).

Question 2: Who told you (that your career and money could give you that sense of security)?
He revealed to me that He is the one who owns this entire world, if He look after the birds in the air how much more will He give to His son.

Question 3: Have you eaten the fruit I told you not to eat? (Have you put your security in your career and money)
I confessed to God that I did.

I don't usually hear God's voice audibly. God will usually put some notions or prompting in my heart, however He spoke to me audibly that night. His words was: "Do not worry my son. I know my plans for you, a plan to prosper you not to harm you." I wept (so much for guys don't cry).

I still have a lot of doubts. I know God wants me to resign and offer my career to Him. Its not easy though. On sunday, the message was about fear. Its as if God is affirming me to take the leap of faith. The same evening I printed out my resignation letter. I was very anxious. I couldn't sleep. Then I tell God, "God, if you really want me to quit, ask someone to sms me." Guess what.. Few seconds later, Vincent sms-ed me psalm 23. That's like totally cool. God heard and answered my silly request.

The next day I gave the letter. Still anxious, but when I was in my director's room God gave me peace. I even shared the reality of God with him. God is good, I found favor in my director's eyes. I will be staying for a couple of weeks to make sure that the conference that I am handling is taken care of. He offered to write a testimony for me and he will give me off whenever I need to go for other interviews.

I still have not applied for any job yet when I resigned. However I felt enormous peace and sense of freedom. Indeed, I have been set free from worries and fear of man. I know that God holds my future and I can rest assure that He will meet all my needs. A foolish faith it seems, but doesn't God use the foolish of the world to put its wise men to shame? (1 Corinthians 1:27)

"But thanks be to God who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of Him(2 Corinthians 2:14)"